Love happens... You can't really predict when and with whom you'll fall for. I wanted to fall for who I think is the right one for me. We share the same faith and that matters a lot. He's almost perfect. Except I didn't feel anything for him.

Here comes a guy who I thought at first wasn't my type. Turns out I fell in love with his mind. I can't even believe that I have this guy and love in the same sentence. I don't think I've ever prayed so hard for God to take away the feelings I have for this guy. I really don't want to fall in love with a guy who God didn't choose for me. God give me strength. God take this away from me. I'm afraid of what I'm feeling. I really am...

I hope these feelings will just pass. I hope I can go back to the way I am before I started having these thoughts of us happy together. I hope everything is simple. I fall in love with a wonderful Christian guy and he'll fall in love with me...

broke out of my cocoon at 5:48 PM