Metamorphosis

My Brother's Twin

2007-10-10T15:56:00.000+08:00

I chanced upon the full movie version of the latest Vaness Wu starrer, Kung Fu Fighter on YOUTUBE. I was actually excited to see this movie NOT because of Vaness but because it's starring Lam Chi Chung. About 30 minutes into the movie I was disappointed that it was NOT as funny as Shaolin Soccer or Kung Fu Hustle. Nevertheless, I was giggling everytime Lam Chi Chung would go onscreen. NOT because he was really THAT funny in the movie but because he could really pass as my brother's twin. Can you see the resemblance? I could just imagine how interesting our Macau & HK trip would be because people will be approaching my brother for autographs. Hahaha!

LOVE HAPPENS...

2007-09-26T17:48:00.001+08:00

Love happens... You can't really predict when and with whom you'll fall for. I wanted to fall for who I think is the right one for me. We share the same faith and that matters a lot. He's almost perfect. Except I didn't feel anything for him.

Here comes a guy who I thought at first wasn't my type. Turns out I fell in love with his mind. I can't even believe that I have this guy and love in the same sentence. I don't think I've ever prayed so hard for God to take away the feelings I have for this guy. I really don't want to fall in love with a guy who God didn't choose for me. God give me strength. God take this away from me. I'm afraid of what I'm feeling. I really am...

I hope these feelings will just pass. I hope I can go back to the way I am before I started having these thoughts of us happy together. I hope everything is simple. I fall in love with a wonderful Christian guy and he'll fall in love with me...

TOTALLY MESSED UP

2007-09-19T12:06:00.000+08:00

My heart can't stop racing. My mind's a mess. I can't concentrate. I have so many things to do at work and being like this is not helping at all! I want this week to end. I want to see him again to validate the emotions I have right now. I can't understand why I even feel like this. I don't even know how things happened. There's really nothing different about our last encounter but at that moment something inside me changed and I'm suddenly flooded with emotions I can't control. God help me please... I don't need this. I don't want this. I need clarity and peace again. Will I even find those things this weekend? I really hope so...

SWITCHFOOT IN MANILA

2007-09-12T09:23:00.001+08:00

Here's the video of Switchfoot playing one of their more popular song, Dare you to move. The quality is not that good but who cares?! I watched and had a great time! Hehehe.

SWITCHFOOT ROCKED MANILA

2007-09-12T09:21:00.001+08:00

The date was September 10, 2007 when Switchfoot rocked the Cuneta Astrodome. Nothing dampened my spirit that night. Never mind that Mon purchased a ticket on the opposite side of the court or that we forgot to conceal the camera we brought so we had to surrender it to the reception area. By God's grace we still got to enjoy the concert together. Thanks to the unnamed girls who were very kind to let us occupy one of their extra seats. And also, we had our cellphones with us so we still got to take some pictures and videos.

I really had a great time! I was jumping, head banging, shouting support to their multi-tasking Filipino band member Jerome Fontamillas, and singing at the top of my lungs. To top it all off, we watched the band eat Balut live onstage. Hehehe.

To those who were there I know you'd agree with me that the concert was a hit. And to those who didn't watch, you missed a great concert... :-)

JENNY'S NATURAL MATE

2007-06-05T15:31:00.000+08:00

June has finally come 'round. The wedding month so they say. Are there wedding bells for me yet? Nada. But I'm no longer obsessing about getting married. I think I've finally come to a point that I'm not in a hurry to get married. I believe it's better to wait for the right person rather than get married for the wrong reasons. So, who would really be the right person for me? Here's something I found which can shed some light to this profound question. :-)

When Jenny was born, the "Goddess of Love" was in Gemini the Twins...proverbially, the most talkative of the twelve signs. So, does Jenny have a thing for chatterboxes? Well, certainly the natural lover is one who enjoys a good conversation, and that means listening as well as talking. The real point here is that Jenny responds in a viscerally romantic way to people who always have something new and interesting about which to speak. These are individuals, in other words, who are very much engaged with learning, with seeing new places and meeting new people. They sense that life is rich and brief and that we'd better "eat it now" while we have it. Jenny can certainly be faithful, but this is not the type of person who can or should truly "forsake all others." The natural mate is one who easily allows space for contact with other people, and expects the same attitude in return. Part of the magic of such a partnership lies in its deep commitment to freshness and change, to mental stimulation, and to the ongoing adventure.

THE EXPERIMENT

2007-05-24T17:57:00.000+08:00

There, I've done it. I've proven to myself that I can do something as bad as this. What did I get from it? I realized that I love the me who cares about other people's feelings whether I know them on a personal basis or not. I realized that everything's great and comes naturally when you do it with someone you love. I realized that I am capable of doing bad things but I would like to choose to do good instead.

It's pretty weird to start off my new site like this but I guess this is what metamorphosis really is. You try to test yourself and see how far you will go and then you realize who you really are. From there comes the transformation to a better and smarter you.

I know what I'm capable of. I know what I'm not. I know what I want to be.